My dinner
Mood: Frustrated and angry.
Assalamualaikum and good eve everyone.
Today is such a frustrating day. Not my luck at all. Worst of all, it's Syamimi. Last time I'm supposed to sit next to her but today she let me exchanged seats. Now I will be seating at the back alone. I feel like I was abandoned in that class. I feel like I want to change class with Allya or Hajira--- just as long I'm not in the same class with her... I feel like I want to tell the truth to her but... *sigh* That won't work anyway.. Today I got 2 homeworks but I can make it into 4 homeworks instead. I just want to rewrite the exercises that the teacher gave to us. I want to try beating my grades on Syamimi's grade. Well I did mention that I'm going to study hard this year. I wanted to be a in the same class with Hajira or Allya next year. I don't want to hang out with Syamimi anymore.
And the most terrible thing I've heard, Syamimi wants to be a prefect. Ugh, GREAT. Just GREAT. Why would she even want to be a prefect anyway? I mean, I don't think she has the suitable reasons on being a prefect at all. All the reasons she will be telling the prefect(on the interview) will be all LIES. What I usually think that she will be a prefect and get to walk around the school to see HIM. I don't wanna be with her anymore. At least now I have a better friend in class D. Her name is Iffah Anis. She's nice actually. But I don't know her opinion on Syamimi. *sigh* I don't know why Athirah and Izzah wanted to be with her. A terrible friendship, I could say. And when I got home, I got mixed up with my sister's exercise books. Shit.
I feel stressed now. I cant seem to have the time with Animes or mangas anymore... Wow, I feel like crying...
Assalamualaikum and good eve everyone.
Today is such a frustrating day. Not my luck at all. Worst of all, it's Syamimi. Last time I'm supposed to sit next to her but today she let me exchanged seats. Now I will be seating at the back alone. I feel like I was abandoned in that class. I feel like I want to change class with Allya or Hajira--- just as long I'm not in the same class with her... I feel like I want to tell the truth to her but... *sigh* That won't work anyway.. Today I got 2 homeworks but I can make it into 4 homeworks instead. I just want to rewrite the exercises that the teacher gave to us. I want to try beating my grades on Syamimi's grade. Well I did mention that I'm going to study hard this year. I wanted to be a in the same class with Hajira or Allya next year. I don't want to hang out with Syamimi anymore.
And the most terrible thing I've heard, Syamimi wants to be a prefect. Ugh, GREAT. Just GREAT. Why would she even want to be a prefect anyway? I mean, I don't think she has the suitable reasons on being a prefect at all. All the reasons she will be telling the prefect(on the interview) will be all LIES. What I usually think that she will be a prefect and get to walk around the school to see HIM. I don't wanna be with her anymore. At least now I have a better friend in class D. Her name is Iffah Anis. She's nice actually. But I don't know her opinion on Syamimi. *sigh* I don't know why Athirah and Izzah wanted to be with her. A terrible friendship, I could say. And when I got home, I got mixed up with my sister's exercise books. Shit.
I feel stressed now. I cant seem to have the time with Animes or mangas anymore... Wow, I feel like crying...
I don't have that much of friends. I'd rather(maybe).... be alone.. That's why on recess I always go to the canteen, buy pepsi(or hashbrown), go straight to class and draw alone. Syamimi doesn't seem to like seeing me draw infront of her.. I wished she wasn't my cousin.. Seriously. She changed... What happened to her...? I need to make good friends but they don't seem to like me too. I'm useless... haha... very useless.. I feel like I want to punch myself and end up at the hospital so I wouldn't go to school by the next day..
I just hope she'd realize one day... Just one day... I should probably do my homework by now but I have no mood because of things what happened today. Plus, I haven't got the borang yet. Me, Allya, Azzrul, Athirah and HER are going to ask the head prefect about the prefect sign up. But we don't know when we should ask. I feel like I wanna change school. I dont want to see your face.
Syamimi always let me wait for her and I'd wait for her. But when I wanted to let her wait for me, she wont wait for me. A bitch.
I just hope I can trespass her grade this year. I want to be useful to my friends. I hate sitting alone. Makes me feel like I'm at the emo corner.... It's okay. This year, I'll study hard and who knows I'll be in a different class and not with her. I must achieve this first.
And its for a payback on what I get in UPSR. I will try be in class A with Allya or maybe even Hajira can be in the same class as me. But.. In the end... I'm still left alone. I don't seem to belong to anyone... Hmm... Maybe I will...?
Perhaps that will be a 0.12 chance for me to belong to a group of friends.. I'm just not the type for them huh? Okay then. I'll step away and wont disturb you guys.
Well I guess that's all.
Bye.
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